April 28, 2013

Thief of Joy

I stayed overnight at Carol's apartment after we had sushi for dinner. It's been quite a long time since we last met on her graduation day. The sleepover just reminded us of the good old days in matriculation. We talked about so many things, topics to topics till midnight, including our current love lives and future like we had a clue. You know, girl talks.
dinner at Sushi King

en route

And we talked of love languages. So how do you show your love? Me and Carol would definitely say we show ours in actions better than words. We'd love picking up little gifts for our partners, or planning out dates and vacations, writing short love notes and leaving them on desk. It’s all about actions for us.

Well, for a guy like Ifo, it’s different. He’s a dude. He likes body workout, music, and talks about sports/politics. He's rarely planning out dates, it's always me who doing it. He thinks gift-giving is overwhelming. I wasn't saying that he's not romantic, but he lacks of surprises and this whole stuff used to bug me once. I looked at my friends' boyfriends who got them bouquet of flowers for no reason or planned a candle night dinner, then it made me feel like Ifo didn’t love me the same way. Yes, we fought a bit about it and yes, it's silly. And if you fight about flowers, it takes the sparkle out of the moment when you actually do get them. 

And I realize that comparison is the thief of joy. 

So I started to think about it differently, how Ifo shows his love. He's the best listener in the world. He turns me into a positive person. He's affectionate and loving. He takes me to places I wanna go. He takes care of me. He stays by my side every time I'm feeling down and stressful. He makes me laugh. He helps me out in everything. There's a lot of ways that I just didn't see clearly. And I admit that it’s lame to think love means flowers. Now I only notice and appreciate the things he actually does, without feeling resentful for the things he's not.

Comparison is the thief of joy. There's a myriad definitions of love, but I'm sure that love is meant to be felt and doesn't necessarily have to be seen. :)

You know when I said I knew little about love? That wasn't true. I know a lot about love. I've seen it, centuries and centuries of it, and it was the only thing that made watching your world bearable. All those wars. Pain, lies, hate. It made me want to turn away and never look down again. But when I see the way that mankind loves, you could search to the furthest reaches of the universe and never find anything more beautiful. So yes, I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing, and what I'm trying to say is...I think I love you. Is this love? I never imagined I'd know it for myself. My heart, it feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange. No fits. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine.
- Stardust

April 22, 2013

Eternal Nirvana

Art welcomes us to a new realm full of new ideas, new concepts, new ideologies, new possibilities. While enjoying an artwork, we're lost in a tiny world, where there are just us and the work before us. An art lets us forget our emotional baggage, weariness from life’s journeys and lets us pry ourselves away from the commonalities of everyday life. When we gaze at a wondrous painting or listen to a beautiful composition or lose ourselves in the rhythm of a dazzling dance, we feel truly lost, yet fully aware.

Art attains its eternal nirvana only when a spectator enjoys it as much as the artist did. And art's captivating because of its mysterious allure. Art gives us the roads, not the map. We admire art, yet we may never know why. I myself really admire paintings and sketches, but I don't have the talents to make one. I wasn't meant to be an artist - be it singing, dancing, acting, painting, etc. - yet, I still love and appreciate arts. Well, that's the least I can do.

I requested a painting of my name from deary Ashley Alexandra, a photo-blogger who has the creativity that I admire. So this is what she made for me:

I didn't specify how I want it to be, but she has made something that I've always loved as I reeeeally love tribal patterns or Aztec prints. And here's some screenshots of her masterpieces that I picked from Instagram:

Aren't they wonderful?
Can't get enough? There are more in her Instagram, so follow her! ^^

April 19, 2013

It Feels Like a Memory

*spoiler alert*

I heard some negative reviews about Oblivion previously, but that didn't stop me from watching it. It's Tom Cruise (he's old, but still a hot stuff) for heaven's sake and hey, it's such a great film. Despite its puzzling story, the problems it runs into along the way are overpowered by beauty and emotional aspirations. 

It's 2077 and earth is a garbage dump, thanks to alien invasion 60 years ago. While the majority of human race had to abandon the earth and take refuge on a moon of Saturn, the only creatures remaining are hiding bands of Scavengers. Monitoring the land are white, round drones, floating cue balls from afar, but menacing killers up close. Occasionally, they need services from Jack Harper, which reminds me of Wall-E. He'll be flying out to repair the drones while Vika guides his movements from the sky. 

"Another day in paradise," - oblivious Vika

Jack and Vika are living together in the floating airborne and their memories have been erased, including the bad memories from the invasion. They're responsible to clean up the remaining forces from the invasion as well as protecting the earth by taking care of drones. They take orders from Sally who promises to let them join the rest of humanity on Titan. Towards the end of the mission, a spaceship carrying sleeping capsules containing human beings crashes on earth. Jack gets to save Julia, a women he often sees in his dreams. 

Many secrets are revealed when Jack and Julia caught by Scavengers, that happen to be human beings. They told Jack all truths and it turns out that Julia is his wife. Apparently, 60 years ago, Jack navigated his NASA ship to investigate Tet (space station where Sally's based), together with Vika as the co-pilot and Julia hibernated in capsule. While being attacked by an alien ship, Jack released the shuttle carrying sleeping capsules to save Julia and others before his spacecraft was caught. The shuttle remained in orbit around the earth for 60 years until drawn in by homing beacon. Jack and Vika were kidnapped, cloned, sent to earth by the Tet and obliviously worked for Sally. Whereas the drones are actually programmed to kill humans, not aliens, because there are no aliens on the earth. 

What happens next? Go and watch it! I really love this movie. Every single shot is meticulously crafted and composed, especially the desolate ruins on earth. The futuristic stuffs featured in Oblivion are also amazing, such Jack's house, bubbleship, motorbike, computerized table, and everything. Not to forget the unique story line. There's a bit of elements from Wall-E, Inception and Vanilla Sky, and maybe others too. Go watch! ^^

a house in the clouds

"I know you, but we've never met. I'm with you and I don't know your name. I know I'm dreaming, but it feels like more than that. It feels like a memory. How can that be?"
- Jack Harper

April 17, 2013

This Will be Love

“When I find the person who is perfect for me, he won’t feel inadequate in my presence. He will see my light, talents, intelligence, and charisma and use it to brighten his own life. He will embrace my flaws and help me build bridges where there were once dams. He will love without condition; he will love even when he’s sad and angry. He will inspire me, we will inspire each other, and this will be love, finally.”

I can only manage to publish this kind of stuff at the moment..need to finish my assignments and prepare for mid-term papers. Plus, I'm a bit sad right now since my family flies to Bandung tonight without me. Huhu. I bid you adieu! 

April 14, 2013

In Your Heart or On Its Way

A week ago, my childhood friend got married. It was a beautiful, dreamy wedding in ballroom hall. 
I love weddings. Absolutely, positively love them. Whether it's a dear friend's wedding or someone I've never even met, my heart swells watching 2 people celebrate their never-ending love for one another. And when my friends marry the love of their lives, holy moly, my heart nearly jumps right out of my chest with happiness. And I can't help but wonder, how on earth will I keep my heart from exploding with love the day I marry the love of my life? Do they have vitamins to prevent that? :p LOL.

Well, other than the wedding, I was really happy to finally meet my old friends after 14 years. 
Many many years ago, we lived in Tawau and there's a nice family living next door. Their kids became my playmates and the bestest friends during my childhood. But in 1999, my parents decided to move permanently to Papar as they got new workplaces in KK. We're so young..no numbers or emails to be exchanged, no facebook yet..and we probably won't see each other again. That's 14 years ago. 

We did see each other again. However, things were different. Of course. We're the same persons, but we're not the same kids anymore. Never thought that separation turns best friends into strangers. Yet, I'm very happy that one of them have married now. And I'm glad that they've became a part of my sweet memories that I'll never forget.

And life gets more exciting with each passing day
And love is either in your heart or on its way.

April 13, 2013

After All this Time

"I always write from personal experience or things that I see. I don't ever try to write about things I don't know. If asked, I want to speak from a place of knowledge and experience. Or at the very least, I'm learning and I'm interested. This album really reflects where the guys and I have been lately. It's one of the happiest things we've ever been a part of. The sound is a lot more upbeat this time around. I don't think our fans have gotten to hear this side of us, where not everything is so heavy and so detrimental."
- Hayley Williams, 2013

That's what Hayley said during an exclusive interview by Glamour recently. I've loved Paramore since the beginning and they just keep getting better. From emo teen-punk, heavy rock, folky terrain, to now. I love that all of their albums are extremely strong for their own reasons. And I'm loving the more positive, upbeat tone of the new album. The music video of their new song, Still Into You, has been I released and I love it at every bit. Now I have something new to dance to. ^^

Yeah, the song and video are very different from their usual ones and I saw some negative comments about them. Some want the old Paramore, some say Hayley's becoming Katy Perry, some say they sound horrible, blah blah blah. Screw all those craps. That's the example of people who are afraid of changes, living in denial and stuck forever in the past. Move on, peeps! Paramore still rocks.

It's a beautiful song and the video's cute! I'm glad to finally see them being so happy and I think it's my favorite video they've ever done. As much as I love Hayley and I can't get enough of her hair, outfit, makeup and her adorable dance, but I wish the video showed more of Taylor and Jeremy, they crack me up. 

What Hayley said about her pop-culture obsessions:

"I am re-obsessed with the Spice Girls and their Spice World movie. I grew up on that, and I love that right now the '90s are an influence on young people. It seems like 6 years ago, a lot of us were looking back more into the '80s. But the Spice Girls mean so much to people my age and people younger than me. I love the sense of girl power they give to young women. You know, I didn't have that when I was 16 when Paramore started. I wish it was something that I more fully understood. So I'm loving that young women are embracing their femininity, their power, and their strength. I look at my younger sister, and she's so strong and self-aware. I just feel that it's so important, whether it's feminism or feeling powerful for just one day, I'm happy that's back in pop culture. I hope it stays. I'm happy to see strong women."

Oh this is why I love Hayley. ^^

Now, let's enjoy the song!

Still Into You

Can't count the years on one hand
that we've been together
I need the other one to hold you
Make you feel, make you feel better

It's not a walk in the park to love each other
But when our fingers interlock,
Can't deny, can't deny you're worth it
'Cause after all this time, I'm still into you

I should be over all the butterflies
But I'm into you (I'm into you)
And baby even on our worst nights
I'm into you (I'm into you)
Let 'em wonder how we got this far
'Cause I don't really need to wonder at all
Yeah after all this time I'm still into you

Recount the night that I first met your mother
And on the drive back to my house
I told you that, I told you that I loved ya

You felt the weight of the world fall off your shoulder
And to your favorite song
we sang along to the start of forever
And after all this time, I'm still into you


Some things just, some things just make sense
and one of those is you and I (Hey)
Some things just, some things just make sense
and even after all this time (Hey)

I'm into you, baby not a day goes by
that I'm not into you

P.S: Sill Into You means a lot to me. I know Hayley won't read my blog, but I'd like to thank her for this song. ^_^

April 8, 2013

Those Moments

Love can be hard and grueling. You know, one of those moments where you wish you just weren't capable of love? We all have it, rare as it may be, it's the moment that you wish you couldn't love so that it can keep us from the pain of watching people we love forget; forget who you are and what you meant to them, where their mind slowly slips away and you become a stranger in those eyes. Those eyes that now fear you.

People with Alzheimer's disease could make you feel those moments more than you should, because you don't want to feel the pain of watching your loved one slip away in such an ungracious and undignified way, for them to lose everything that meant something to them. I've watched some movies about Alzheimer's and heard friends' stories of their grandparents affected by this disease. Although I never have experience of spending time with people who have Alzheimer's, but I can feel the heartache from the stories I heard. 

Imagine the sadness fills your heart every time you visit your grandparents and they stare up at you and say, "who are you?" or "why do you look familiar?". My heart would break. I wish everyone I love will never suffer from Alzheimer's or any kind of diseases.

April 6, 2013

Because Facebook is not Life

Hey loves! Oh such a lazy Saturday. It heavily rains outside and I have to admit, I'm an utterly lazy person when it's raining like today. It's something about the dreary weather that makes me want to cuddle up with hot tea and do absolutely nothing. Also, my mind seems to wander more....to unproductive, irrelevant places..and once again contributing to my theory: rainy day makes me a lazy lady

So I'm just listening to some oldies, scrolling through tumblr, vibering with Ifo, reading friends' blogs, hearting pictures on weheartit...wandering aimlessly just like my mind . I should have a new name; Wanderer would be nice..like Wanda in The Host. Okay scratch that. 

I'd just love to share something I found in Thought Catalog. It's the 16 reasons you should spend less time in facebook. Did somebody just say "ouch"? I know this is an old cliche, but I think this is important for everyone and no offense, people nowadays have unconsciously spent a big chunk of their lives on facebook. Let's check out why you should limit your facebooking time:

Because you’re procrastinating doing work that's relevant to your life.

Because you don’t actually care about 75% of the people on your facebook.

Because rants are annoying and a day can’t go past without someone ranting on there.

Because you don’t need to know what's going on in that many people’s lives.

Because you don’t need that many people knowing what's going on in your life.

Because a lot of people are faking it.

Because 85% of it is useless information that you'll soon forget.

Because you’re comparing your life to what your friends depict their life as.

Because photos of sonograms and daily baby bumps do not enrich your life in anyway.

Because relationship statuses or a lack thereof don't tell you anything about the relationship status.

Because your ego is way too tied to your facebook interactions.

Because you’ll give less of a shit what people think and there is a lot of freedom in that.

Because you’ll spend more time and effort cultivating and maintaining real relationships.

Because you want to like people and have faith in humanity.

Because wouldn't you rather be living your life than posting about it?

Because Facebook is not real life. 

April 5, 2013

HomeTuitionJob.com: Teach and Learn

According to my own experience, I know that students are different and perform differently at home and in schools; differ in behavior,  learning and grasping power. Some students are very brilliant and some others need extra attention and help to show their true performances. But relying on teachers at school alone to help improving scores especially on difficult subjects won't sometimes be enough. I had this kind of problem when I was in school. I can't either depend on my parents that always thought education is the key to successful life but didn't have enough time to teach me as they're both working. So they sent me to tuition and I took some subjects that I was weak in, and yes, it helped and I scored great in SPM.

Home tuition or in Bahasa, tuisyen has become necessary for all students; as brilliant student have to compete and keep the pace of getting good scores, while the weak ones have to struggle hard in getting good marks. It is helpful in imparting the knowledge and interest in students and they're able to get maximum benefits from this home tuition. It also will help them build confidence and hence speed up their learning process, which is important for students to discover the most effective way of learning so that they could excel in life. With home tuition, the parents can keep track of performance of their kids and get in touch with the tutors directly to see the progress.

HomeTuitionJob.com is a great website that matches tutors and students in a wide area of learning beyond academic subjects. With this website, parents or students could simply search tutors by gender, location or subjects. The tutors' details are mostly attached with photos, so parents and students would want to know more about the tutors before deciding to engage their tutoring services. This is one of the ideal ways for students to be excellent in both primary and secondary schools, especially for those who will be sitting for UPSR and SPM. This home tuition is not only trending in Malaysia, but it also has expanded to India and Singapore.

While providing benefits to parents and students, HomeTuitionJob.com is also a source of side incomes as it opens a job opportunity for everyone as tutors. I would love to take the chance too, but with my final year of degree and thesis going on, I don't think I could have a part time job yet. So, for anyone out there who wants to teach, help the younger ones, or anyone that wants to have experience in teaching, go sign up at HomeTuitionJob.com .

You can watch the video of introduction to HomeTuitionJob.com and you'll see how it can help you.

Learning is a lifelong process, education stops when you leave schools. Education is what other teach you, learning is what you teach yourself. 

April 4, 2013

Won't Lose Each Other

Hey hey, it's been a long time! In the past several days, I sat down and got nothing. I didn't feel any blogging vibes coming to me. So I didn't. Instead I closed the dashboard page and faced my life head on. But now, I have it back and my fingers are buzzing. 2 months to go til I finish my degree and and there will be the time when possibilities are blooming and options are endless. How exciting, huh?

Oh very much so. For me, it's terrifying somehow. Knowing that worrying doesn't change an ounce of the intended outcome or fate, doesn't change the fact that I'll still worry. About every detail. Every unknown. Every little thing there is to worry about; being 23, finishing degree, still hanging in the middle of thesis, juggling between assignments and tests, thinking of looking for career opportunities soon, budgeting and saving...

"Worrying won't change anything"

You could smash that fact into my thick skull all day long and I'd still wake up at least once a week itching and sweating from stresses that mulled their way into my brain even at the off-hours. But this is nothing new. It has been the dragon I've been trying to slay my whole life. Now I'm just gonna try and keep this dragon at bay each day. 

In the meantime, I'm gonna spend some times on the wonderful, worry-free things. Like, today, I had a movie date with Ifo. We watched The Host (..amazing story in book, but a bit off in film, I prefer reading the book instead. It's still a great story though, one of the most unusual love triangles. Go watch it.), ate at Secret Recipe and chilled out at KK's seaside. It's nice to finally see the world and get away from books, papers and apparatus. Huhu. Till next post (I hope so..).

from The Host

P.S: I'll try to blogwalk after this.


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