It was fine saturday morning & no laundry today so i wanted to stay in bed longer but Qayla woke up SO early which was SO unlike her coz she usually wakes up at 9am like come on baby it's Saturday uggh & hubby's suddenly craving for Maggi curry with egg but i planned to make pancakes this morning but we only had 1 egg left so i cooked Maggi for him anyway with that 1 last egg & at the same time made Qayla's breakfast & preheated her bath & had a me time for 10 seconds by drinking honey then hubby complained about his curry noodles for having too little sauce which was his fault coz he let it cool for too long & i had to explain about the science of water absorption & he took picture of his bowl & put it on IGstory lol & we had a little more fight about the splattered oil & greasy stove & he blamed me for not using the right pan then i blamed him back for not buying a new pan & not cleaning the wall & stove regularly & then Qayla made a funny sound & danced in the bath tub & we laughed. Now i'm sleepy but gotta pack for balik kampung & get ready for a open house at cousin's house which i'm so excited about bcoz im hungry but Qayla's taking a nap & gotta wait til she wakes up 2 hours later huhuhu & here i am rambling about my ordinary life with my little family, all the charms & flaws, & those are the things that make us complete & happy ❤ Alhamdulillah..
June 30, 2018
June 28, 2018
Perfect Time?
I remember long ago someone asked me these questions: Do u believe that love comes at the perfect time? What if it's not the perfect time for u? Do u continue with it anyway, or do u close off your heart to focus on the things u want to do?
I went through a painful, unexpected breakup that left me heartbroken, shocked, crestfallen & something that felt an awful lot like angry, although i couldn't name it at the time. There was grief, i felt paralyzed by the realization of an ending & loss. As i sunk into love's absence, the last thing i wanted was to find it again. And then, of course, i met someone.
I recognized him as if we'd known each other for years, as if i was returning to him or to myself or maybe both. Things felt easy & airy between us, & i told myself that there might just be something incredible here. There was, & he did everything he could to help it along & show love. He was certain. I was, too. And yet. Fear, it turns out, can be devastating. Fear & possibility can force you to turn away from the right path in favor of something easier, something that's more familiar, even if it's something that leaves you feeling hopeless.
There's a time i pushed him away, & he held on until he didn't. Because that's how it goes, isn't it? We turn someone away, beg them to let go, & then the moment they do, we're struck with the sudden awareness of what we'd always known: Love. Or faith. Or maybe both. I thought it wasn't the perfect time for us. Truth is, it never has been. Again & again we've wrestled between dreams only to realize that being together means being okay with the fact that things won't always be easy. When are things ever really easy anyway? We've been together now though & hey, there's a baby on board. ❤
There were other questions: Do you believe that you have to be happy with yourself before you get involved with someone? Or do you believe that maybe you don't have to have it all figured out, that maybe this person has entered your life to help you?
Yes, of course. And yes. I believe both of those things, neither feels less true than the other. I think you need to be happy enough with yourself to let someone else help you. And i think it's the opening up, the welcoming in of love, ease & trust, that leads you to look back & feel like the timing was perfect. Even when it wasn't.
May 19, 2018
2 Cents by a Stay-At-Home Mom
“So…what did you even do all day?"
Raise your hand if you've been asked this question as a stay-at-home mother. Now use it to slap whomever asked it. 😂😂
I was once insulted for being a stay-at-home mom. They said i'm stupid & narrow-minded for not having a job, crammed at home & not seeing anyone. It's painful, i wanted to shout at them, shove soiled diapers into their mouth & kick them hard. But i'm better than that. Clearly people who said those things haven't even got a kid, haven't even got nothing but their so-called dream job while wasting money on worldly stuff.
Alhamdulillah, life's been wonderful with my beloved husband and daughter. Many things have changed in a better way since we moved here. For the past 3 years i was doomed for being unemployed & didn't get why life treated me that way. But when Qayla came, i found the answers. Hubby already made it clear from the start that i don't have to sweat about not getting a job & convinced me that home is the best place for me. As always, he's right.
Now i'm glad to be a stay-at-home mom. Because life is short & i wanna spend the rest of time raising my child, i'm lucky to be the 1st person to witness Qayla's milestones & achievement. I truly believe that rezeki comes in many forms, a child is one of them & they lead us to many good fortunes in life. As Qayla's getting good at many things now, i have some extra times to do more different things. So i've started a little online business of selling scarves & clothes since March, annnnd alhamdulillah, sales are great, enough to buy Qayla's favorite veggies. 😊
But that doesn't make me feel any less prouder of working mothers out there. I salute u, mommies. Even staying at home makes me feel exhausted to juggle everything, then it must be tougher to do it as a working mom. Whatever the risks, whatever it takes to feed & to buy some decent clothes for our babies, right?
Ignore those who say bad things about how we raise our kids. Sometimes they just say it without having knowledge or slightest idea of what it's like to be us, & sometimes i think they've just ran out of onions. You know what i mean. As long as it brings no harm, let's keep doing what's best for our kids. ❤❤
Raise your hand if you've been asked this question as a stay-at-home mother. Now use it to slap whomever asked it. 😂😂
I was once insulted for being a stay-at-home mom. They said i'm stupid & narrow-minded for not having a job, crammed at home & not seeing anyone. It's painful, i wanted to shout at them, shove soiled diapers into their mouth & kick them hard. But i'm better than that. Clearly people who said those things haven't even got a kid, haven't even got nothing but their so-called dream job while wasting money on worldly stuff.
Alhamdulillah, life's been wonderful with my beloved husband and daughter. Many things have changed in a better way since we moved here. For the past 3 years i was doomed for being unemployed & didn't get why life treated me that way. But when Qayla came, i found the answers. Hubby already made it clear from the start that i don't have to sweat about not getting a job & convinced me that home is the best place for me. As always, he's right.
Now i'm glad to be a stay-at-home mom. Because life is short & i wanna spend the rest of time raising my child, i'm lucky to be the 1st person to witness Qayla's milestones & achievement. I truly believe that rezeki comes in many forms, a child is one of them & they lead us to many good fortunes in life. As Qayla's getting good at many things now, i have some extra times to do more different things. So i've started a little online business of selling scarves & clothes since March, annnnd alhamdulillah, sales are great, enough to buy Qayla's favorite veggies. 😊
But that doesn't make me feel any less prouder of working mothers out there. I salute u, mommies. Even staying at home makes me feel exhausted to juggle everything, then it must be tougher to do it as a working mom. Whatever the risks, whatever it takes to feed & to buy some decent clothes for our babies, right?
Ignore those who say bad things about how we raise our kids. Sometimes they just say it without having knowledge or slightest idea of what it's like to be us, & sometimes i think they've just ran out of onions. You know what i mean. As long as it brings no harm, let's keep doing what's best for our kids. ❤❤
April 10, 2018
Going Strong
Assalamualaikum & hello everyone!
Alhamdulillah, it's been a year & Qayla still nurses on breastmilk..she rejects any formula & depends on me but i'm not worried much coz she's eating a good amount of food & she nurses 5 times a day & gets up 2 times at night for feedings. She's got plenty. And i'm not ready to wean yet, i plan to continue until she's 2 or 4..insyaAllah.
My breastfeeding journey is not all rainbows & roses, the older my baby is, the tougher it gets sometimes. She has 4 teeth now, so what do u expect? 😂 And she refuses nursing in public so i have to find a cubicle or go to car. But that's a just a bump in the road, the rest is wonderful. It makes me feel like a superhero coz breastmilk is a natural painkiller & soother. Plus it burns my calories no matter how much i eat.
For new mommies out there, don't give up on breastfeeding, but those who really can't, it's okay then, don't push yourself. Either way doesn't make u less a mother. I'd love to share some tips to extend breastfeeding:
1. Reduce coffee intake..give up on coffee is much better
2. Avoid stress
3. Never eat cabbage
4. Get support from your husband
5. Eat some boosters: dates, prunes, grapes, goat's milk, papaya, etc
6. Keep hydrated
❤❤❤
Alhamdulillah, it's been a year & Qayla still nurses on breastmilk..she rejects any formula & depends on me but i'm not worried much coz she's eating a good amount of food & she nurses 5 times a day & gets up 2 times at night for feedings. She's got plenty. And i'm not ready to wean yet, i plan to continue until she's 2 or 4..insyaAllah.
My breastfeeding journey is not all rainbows & roses, the older my baby is, the tougher it gets sometimes. She has 4 teeth now, so what do u expect? 😂 And she refuses nursing in public so i have to find a cubicle or go to car. But that's a just a bump in the road, the rest is wonderful. It makes me feel like a superhero coz breastmilk is a natural painkiller & soother. Plus it burns my calories no matter how much i eat.
For new mommies out there, don't give up on breastfeeding, but those who really can't, it's okay then, don't push yourself. Either way doesn't make u less a mother. I'd love to share some tips to extend breastfeeding:
1. Reduce coffee intake..give up on coffee is much better
2. Avoid stress
3. Never eat cabbage
4. Get support from your husband
5. Eat some boosters: dates, prunes, grapes, goat's milk, papaya, etc
6. Keep hydrated
❤❤❤
March 2, 2017
Read Instead
Some days you just want to cuddle up on the couch, drink coffee and read a good book. You'd feel the difference when you start picking up books (real ones, with covers and spines) instead of phone at the end of a long day. You'd feel healthier, happier and smarter. Here's some titles I recommend for you that you might want to add into your reading list. Dig in. Enjoy. Happy reading!
1. Classics are like vitamins, you should have them everyday:
Anne Frank: Diary of a Young Girl, Anne Frank
Their Eyes were Watching God, Zora N. Hurston
Man's Search for Meaning, Victor Frankl
The Bell Jar, Sylvia Plath
The Book Thief, Markus Zusak
Wise Blood, Flannery O'Connor
Perks of Being a Wallflower, Stephen Chbosky
To Kill a Mockingbird, Harper Lee
2. Books for bosses:
The Big Life, Ann Shoket
Safe People, Henry Cloud
Make it Happen, Lara Casey
Chasing Slow, Erin Loechner
3. Nonfiction I'll forever keep on my bookshelf:
Wild, Cheryl Strayed
Tiny, Beautiful Things, Cheryl Strayed
Eat, Pray, Love, Liz Gilbert
Always a Bridesmaid (for Hire), Jen Glantz
Modern Romance, Aziz Ansari
Reclaiming Conversation, Sherry Turkle
Love Does, Bob Goff
Scary Close, Donald Miller
The Year of Magical Thinking, Joan Didion
4. Fiction picks for 2017:
The Nightingale, Kristin Hannah
The Trespasser, Tana French
Small Great Things, Jodi Picoult
See Me, Nicholas Sparks
The Wonder, Emma Donoghue
5. For the writer in you:
Bird by Bird, Anne Lamott
On Writing, Stephen King
Big Magic, Liz Gilbert
6. A bunch of books featuring crazy chicks gone psycho:
Gone Girl, Gillian Flynn
Sharp Objects, Gillian Flynn
Good as Gone, Amy Gentry
All the Missing Girls, Megan Miranda
Swimming Lessons, Claire Fuller
Girl on the Train, Paula Hawkins
The Woman in Cabin 10, Ruth Ware
7. Books to grow you spiritually:
Reclaim Your Heart, Yasmin Mogahed
Meaning of Marriage, Tim Keller
Blue like Jazz, Donald Miller
Celebration of Discipline, Richard Foster
Run with the Horses, Eugene Peterson
8. On my docket for 2017:
These are books that I've either never read or plan to read for a 2nd (or 5th) time in 2017. I can't speak for all of them since I don't know all the content yet but I compiled this list anyway.
Beloved, Toni Morrison
The Fran Lebowitz Reader, Fran Lebowitz
The Mothers, Britt Bennett
Mad Girl's Love Song, Andrew Wilson
The Color Purple, Alice Walker
I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings, Maya Angelou
Gone with the Wind, Margaret Mitchell
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